It's Sunday night... I had a TO DO list for my day. Of the 15 items on it, two were accomplished. I DID make it to the grocery store. I WAS able to get a few loads of laundry washed and dried... (but not folded and put up - or even out of the dryer). The floor did not get vacuumed. The cherry turnovers did not get made. Nor did the bread, or the pizza dough. Heck, I'm lucky the groceries even got off the counter. Good intentions... the road to Hell is paved with them...
See, Sweet Pea was especially fussy today. I find it ironic that while my husband was out of town all last week I was able to keep Sweet Pea occupied and happy. I was able to get loads of tasks accomplished all while he babbled away in his swing, or on the floor... But today, when there were two of us to "tag team" and get our chores done... it just wasn't happening. Instead, I spent the day feeding, rocking, snuggling, kissing, and holding my especially fussy little guy. And it's easy to get really, really frustrated thinking about all the things I'm NOT getting done. Because the floor is still dirty and disgusting... and the laundry is in piles -- it's staring me in the face! And so is my list... because NOTHING is crossed off it!
But then... as I take a step back and I sit down and reflect upon my day... I realize what I DID accomplish. While I still have a TO DO list a mile long, the most important part of my day wasn't on my silly list. I was able to spend time with Sweet Pea. He needs me... and he LOVES spending time with me. He loves kisses and eye contact. He loves it when I sing to him, talk to him, smile at him. And he loves to smile back. He especially loves when we both get to snuggle and fall asleep on the couch watching some cheesy movie. (Today he was able to do the latter part with his daddy).
Sweet Pea isn't going to be this tiny little guy for long. (People keep reminding me of this fact... friends, family, strangers... trust me, I get it.) Before I know it, he'll be crawling, walking, running... In less than I week I will return to work and I'll miss out on all the little day to day moments with Sweet Pea. And way before I'm ready for it Sweet Pea will get bigger and won't want to snuggle with or want kisses from his mama! So, there will be plenty of other days to vacuum, make turnovers, and fold laundry. Today I spent the day with my little Sweet Pea. I feel pretty lucky to have such a special little guy who wants to spend the day with me.
And tomorrow, I will add "spend quality time with Sweet Pea" to the top of that TO DO list. Then, if nothing else gets accomplished, I'll still be able to put a check mark by the most important one.
The best part of your day today was realizing that the TO DO LIST is a load of guff - We have all been programed to believe that if our houses are not up to Martha's standards we are slacking. If you do not look like you stepped out of Vogue with everthing just so then we are falling down on the job. The real measure of a person is not how much you get done but what JOY do you bring to whatever you do that minute. You sang, loved, kissed, supported and put the needs of your sweet pea first - I think that counts for everything.....
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